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boundary conditions
considered purely as a deterministic measure of time, february cowers as somewhat of an afterthought in an unappreciated corner of the calendar year...
...a calendar year that is simultaneously too old to still be 'exciting and new', (e.g. you no longer accidentally transcribe last year's digits onto signed documents), yet too young to motivate anyone with the brutal earnestness that a deadline such as the END OF THE YEAR demands. quite simply, there still remains a whole lot of 'tomorrow' left to exploit.
then, as if to add insult to injury, the very composition of february is redefined on a quadrennial basis. it exists as a kind of pseudo scientific band-aid, a crude slight-of-hand to mask the fact that our planet rotates about the sun in an irrational period which does not fit nicely into the rational space we'd really, really like it to.
rendered impotent by the shifting guidelines of western calendars, how can february possibly demand the respect of those that tumble through its tear-away days with reckless indifference?
then again, maybe it is this very element of ambiguity that makes february so compelling. a bridge between winter and spring, or fairy tales and reality; february allows for the blurring of the edges, the simple suggestion of 'chaos theory,' in bug free code.
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this year is a leap year. i like to think that if i time it just right, maybe i'll find the opportunity to see through the boundary conditions of my own 'killing me softly' penchant for self-defintion and into the possibility of pointedly perplexing parallel potentials.
'to see with eyes unclouded by comfort'
of course, that sounds like work. maybe i'll just resign to the movies and try to loose myself in someone else's imagination...