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october symphony?
historically speaking, october could easily be considered to be my favorite month. the color, the fall, an annual demonstration of life's constant need for change. (desperately literal, my apologies).
still, the leaves have warning. days get shorter, the night grows longer. each extended sunset in turn forshadows the ultimate ending. with similar precision, the air gets colder; to the leaves, the breeze whispers its own deadly promise in incrementally more blatant and brazen ways.
where was my warning?
my october: a precious friend announces an engagement. (first time somebody i've kissed has done this). my first meeting with a lawyer. my first meeting with a mortgage broker. a loved one is tested for indications of a truly debilitating disorder. (nothing found: phew). finally, a second friend announces wedding plans (am i really this old?)
if this is change, if this is 'growing up,' i'd like to go back to chasing girls 'round the park with frogs. thank you.